PARIS GRAMANN
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It is mental health awareness month
And these past two days I have only had awareness for my mental state
Of weakness
I am a goddess of weakness
I feel tainted, I feel broken, I feel dark
Mental health awareness month
But it is a month that I am more aware of my
Healthy state around me that I don’t always fit into
My jeans are getting tighter
Cause my head is getting slightly more
Blurry and I eat to hide my fears of what
Feels good
Confusion I am lost
So lost in my confusion
But when you let it eat your soul you get more lost in the fusion
Of what’s real and of what’s not
But can I eat away confusion
Can I sleep away the day until my mind lays out its future
Mental Health Awareness Month
But this month can I hide in love
Surround me, can it surround me?
Or must I go look around me
Can I wait, can it come find me?
Or must I put in the work for it
To show me where I must be
Must I journey for me to be free
I miss my mom, I miss my dad, I miss what used to make me feel safe
Mental Health awareness month
I feel most mental in this month.
Now I know I’m not alone,
But days today, I feel the weight
I make a weight upon my shoulders
That no one could ever show me that
It’s not there.
Because it’s not there. Only there because I put it there.
Mental health awareness month
I know I’m not the only child
That feels lost
That feels confused
That needs a little help of guidance
But do I ask for it?
But do I want it?
The answers may be the same
But should I take it?
Should I ask?
Should I find some light to help me through
This weight
I would not change it
Because I feel I can not change it
If not you, then who?
I hear my father talk of dishes,
And the trashes going out,
But I hear my father talking of life
If not you, then who?
My parents raised me well
They raised my heart and it is big
But too big sometimes I feel
Because this weight just keeps on growing
If not you, then who?
Mental health awareness month
This weight to save the world this month
Is getting bigger
I am more lost
But how do I save my mother nature
And her babies?
Do they even want to be saved?
Mental Health Awareness Month
Helping hearts Awareness Month
Saving minds awareness month
Soothing souls awareness month
Mental Health Awareness Month
I can’t help but feel their hearts
They’re hurting
But their still beating
Not all of them are screaming
Not out loud
But some still are
Can we save the one’s who’re bleeding
Published in 2016, 50th Edition of Drexel's Maya Literary Magazine